I'm not good in English
My colleagues will think I’m stupid if the hear me
They don’t get the respect me because of my awful English
If I speak up I’ll say something wrong and that will be remembered forever
Then all my colleagues will think I’m even more stupid and I'll loose even more respect
I’ll never be given the recognition I deserve so I’ll have to stay in this job forever, how emabarrising
And, I’ll be the first person to lose job if there are redundancies in the company
Without English I have no chance of new job because all the good jobs ask for English
I won't be able to justify my lack of progression and promotion at work, so I'll look even worse.
I hate promoting myself, I can’t sell my skills, especially in English when everyone else is so good.
I'm so stupid, people must think I'm a complete idiot for not saying anything
I'm so glad my partner doesn't see me like this, they'd also think I’m a complete looser
What if they did find out, and all my family saw what a failure I am
I wouldn't be able to look them in the eye ever again
What if I lost my job, all because I can't sell myself
We wouldn't be able to afford to go on holiday
Or be able to afford to pay rent
We'd be kicked out of apartment
The kids would go into care
I'd be cut off from society
I'd loose my friends
If these are some of the thoughts that are going around your head, and you can't find a way to free yourself from them, you're not alone. There is a way to quieten your mind. There are ways for you to start speaking up for yourself at work without advanced level English, and without overwhelming yourself. If you need a different perspective. If you need support to get through this, I can help. Message me.